Well, this is what it's come to. I over-packed. No surprise, really. I'm hoping to be serving with some really nice elders who will help me out ever transfer or other. *Fingers crossed* If all else fails, maybe I'll finally develop some much needed upper body strength.
This is terrifying. Really, but I love that for the first time in my life, I'm going through with something terrifying, no matter what, because I know it's right. I'm proud of myself. That's hard for me to say. I have always been particularly fond of quitting, and please don't judge me if I must come home early and just don't make it.. but at least for now, I'm so resolved to give it my all. To not let the fear win. To rely on my faith. AHHHHHHHH!!!! hahaha, I'm amazed how missionaries do this daily! I'm such a chicken! hahaha oh man, I love this gospel though. If I at all felt in the slightest it wasn't true, trust me, I would not be going. But I know it is, I know this is the least I could do for my Savior, be useful to Him for a year and half, and I know even that will never repay all He does for me. I know this church is the same church Christ set up when He was on Earth and I know He's the head of it today. This is His church and I'm following Him. Still scared, still going. But um... a prayer or two.. or some "good vibes" ...pixie dust... any mumbo jumbo of the righteous variety you could send my way would be SUPER appreciated!
Thank you to all my friends. I genuinely love you all so much and I'm so glad I surround myself with such awesome people! I learn daily from you all. To a selective, about 10, who have influenced who I am, at times, even more than my family. Thank you. For listening and guiding and laughing with me, whether I met you in college or you are in the YSA, some are from high school, heck! some are even from Jr. High. Some are on missions currently, but most of you are home.. to the sweet little spot in Germany, to the Tribe, to the sister, Thank you! My family, who knows me better than anybody, and it shows - I'm sorry I don't say "thank you" enough, and I'm sorry I don't say "sorry" enough. To those I met this year alone - you will never know what an impact you have made in my life, many a times, my only consolation for my wait has been "but I wouldn't have met _____" I'm so grateful for leaders and guardian angels. I wish I could convey it better but my vocabulary would never do my gratitude justice.
I'm off! See you in year and a half! I will be sending my weekly letters to My missionary Blog, so feel free to follow along!
*the song is appropriate because I'm going to Oz. #sappy